Oi! Ma Body’s Hurtin’

When in pain, it is very very difficult to embrace the body, listen to the messages that it is sending, and not curse it or despise it. Pain sucks. It just does. But, if you think about it, how else is the body going to tell us that we are imbalanced? How else can the body get our attention and request a change in our behaviors?


If you are like lots of people, the body is largely an afterthought. It’s just kind of there in the background of your mind until you want to do a workout or are suffering some kind of ailment. Listening to the body is not often a prominent feature in most of our lives. For the most part, we align with our thinking, our analyzing, our thought processes much more. The body just comes along for the ride until imbalance sets in and it has to get our attention.

As for me, I live a tremendously stressful life. I dislike that this is the case, but it’s the truth. I have had a very, very stressful life, all the way from early childhood onward. But, some real beauty has come from this pain and struggle. My traumatized beginnings and stress-packed existence are what have made me such a great writer and why I’ve come to such a strong appreciation for all that my body has put up with (due to my wiring and choices).

This week, I am having some problems with my right hip and last week it was an episode of a bulging disk. While I am very healthy, I do have some reoccurring issues with my joints and back. This is where being large is a real challenge for me. The fact is that bigger bodies are typically harder on their joints. No matter how healthy I am or how much I work out, my joints are taking a hit and they let me know right away when I have pushed a yoga pose too far. For the record, I always push my yoga poses too far. I am such a tank. **Sigh**

I’m sure that my body has been warning me about the impending doom of this current pain cycle, but I haven’t listened and therefore, I’m now paying the price. Before humans get to the actual “feeling pain” stage, whatever the pain is, the body warns us. It sends warning shots. It tells us that something bad is about to happen if we continue down a particular path. The problem is that most of us do not listen very well. We are not taught in childhood how to connect with and check in with our bodies. I don’t know one person who was ever taught how to take inventory of, and listen to, their body. I was never taught that.


I was taught to ignore the body and that the body is sin-based and not to be trusted. I was taught that the body misleads one from their true path to God. Even in the Buddhism that I later practiced, there is a total, encompassing emphasis on superseding the body and its desires. You are taught to transcend the body, the mind, and all attachments to worldly affairs. While I understand why this is a feature of many religions, I do not at all like it.

Now, this post is not a dissertation on religion, but I’ll sum up my opinion by saying that most of our religions have harmed the body and our relationship with it, tremendously. If we are here in bodies to expand as spirits, then why is the body considered so suspect, so in need of such strict governance, and considered such a hindrance to our supposed spiritual growth? Why is the body such a villain? This needs to change. Religion has damaged our relationship and dialog with the body and has placed the body below other human attributes like thought and expression. This is a huge disservice.

Until we, as a species, embrace all aspects of living and accept them, we will not fully and fruitfully live or become an overwhelmingly positive force on this planet. We need to, for our own survival, learn to listen to our bodies and each other. We need to listen, accept, react, express, and then advance. We need to heed the warning bells that our bodies give us and address problems before they become problems. We need to listen, then listen some more.

As for my pain, ice is my very best friend. I love ice. I am icing my hip as I post this and doing my very best to send soothing thoughts to my aching body parts. I am telling my body that I love her, I am here, I am not going anywhere, and I’ll do my best to do better next time. My hip is beginning to smile. Just a little. 🙂

14 thoughts on “Oi! Ma Body’s Hurtin’

  1. Becki Smith

    Ok, My Friend, I can only do a short post because my shoulder and I need to engage in a very meaningful conversation. I’ll get back to you 🙂

  2. BigLizzy Post author

    LOL! I love you, Becki! Thanks for reading ma blog, mommy. Go have that talk with your shoulder. I’ll send you some healing energy from over here. XOXO

    1. Becki

      I would rather have those wonderful hands of yours talking to my shoulders but welcome healing energy too. I once had a guy in Sedona perform a healing ceremony on me with a didgeridoo. I don’t know if it healed me but it sure was cool and amazing.

      1. BigLizzy Post author

        Awww…baby-girl. How sweet are you? The sweetest, I tell ya. Any time you need a good shoulder rub, you call me up. I’ll hop on my HOG, ride up there, and do you up, right! I love you, my wind-sister and friend. So, so much. XOXO

    1. BigLizzy Post author

      Awwww…thanks, dude. How sweet of you to say. Right back atcha. Hey, I like your blog! Your motorcycle is a beauty. And, that helmet? Tooo funny. If you are ever in AZ, we should ride. 🙂

  3. mariner2mother

    I have just barely discovered you, courtesy of Ms. Weebles, and I can see that I have a lot of reading to catch up on! I have spent a lifetime first being at odds with my body, always feeling it was too this or too that (mostly too big), and more recently learning to be ok with, appreciate, and working on loving this big and beautiful miracle.

    I was introduced to the world of spirituality about 2 years ago, and I love the concept that our bodies are more than just a vessel to house our spirit. They are the amazing vehicle through which we experience! And what are we here for? To experience.

    Anyway, my body has become quite large as a protection mechanism (tough childhood, etc.), and with a lot of healing going on, I should be able at some point to be ok with it not quite so big. These days, I’m getting to the point where I am physically uncomfortable being this large; and I will, in time, be able to find a size where my joints (bulging disc, arthritic hips, etc.) are happier.

    Looking forward to getting to know you better.

    1. BigLizzy Post author

      Hi, sweetie! Thank you so much for reading and commenting here, my new friend. Isn’t our Weebles the best mama EVER?! I am so enjoying your blog and have begun following you. I’m so right there with you on the spirituality stuff and holistic living. I have been a long-time practitioner of all kinds of spiritual methods. And, your statement about being large due to tough childhood circumstances so resonates with me. I, too had a very rough upbringing. You and I are the same, sister. Seriously. I just did a post on the pain in my joints and the perils of being in a bigger body. I am so right there with you. I look forward to getting to know you better, too. And, thank you so much for reading, commenting, and following. You’re awesome.

  4. runningonsober

    Hope you’re feeling less achy today, sis. I usually pay the price on Monday mornings after my Sunday long runs. My ankles (and knees sometimes) are not happy with me those days. I know if I took off some pounds, it would lessen the stress on my joints, but I whacked out my metabolism in my anorexic teens, and frankly I’m just not interested in starving myself just to lose a whopping 3 pounds (my body likes to hold on to its fuel, lol), ya know?

    Buddhism (a lifesaver in my recovery from alcohol) naturally makes me think of loving kindness, but true, I hadn’t thought about its minimizing the role of our body. It’s an “attachment” (to body), and attachment = suffering. But it’s also big on self-love and compassion? Maybe that’s more along the lines of a spiritual nature. I’m still learning…

    But back to my main point—hope you’re feeling better! ( nice to see Mariner2 above—she’s fantastic, and a helluva photographer too.)

    1. BigLizzy Post author

      Hi, sweetheart. Thank you so much for the kindness and well-wishes. I am doing so much better these past few days. I am telling you, ice saves my life. I ice like a crazy-girl! Your statement about whacking out your metabolism…OMG! I did the exact same thing. Anorexia hosed me. This big body of mine is not because of lifestyle. I work out 5-7 times per week for a minimum of one hour per workout. I eat no dairy now. I eat vegetables and chicken, basically. If anything, I do not eat enough calories. I hover around 1200 per day and at 245 pounds, that is not enough. I have tried every weight loss regimen, program, approach, and lifestyle. Nuthin’. My problem is a hormonal one and always has been. I started running out of necessary adrenal “goop” in my teens and twenties due to my choices and body type/genetics. So, you and I are like twins. Everything you write is dead-on and has so been my exact experience. As for Buddhism, I love it, but what I cannot get past is the idea it teaches about being below others and that I should consider myself less than others. I do not agree with that tenant at all and thus, have never been a true Buddhist. I refuse to consider that I am less than. I am equal. Also, from my perspective, in Buddhism, compassion is aimed outward at others and the world in a much greater capacity than toward the self. That trips me up, too. Still, if I had to pick one “belief” for myself, it is Buddhism, no question. I love how in Buddhism, you, the person, the entity, are totally responsible for your life and state of affairs. I am so glad that it has helped you with your sobriety, honey. Keep on rockin’ it, mommy. You are divine. XOXO


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